I dreamt that Casey and I were having another wedding ceremony on our 1-year anniversairy, but a few days before the ceremony, Casey passed away. For some reason, I still had to do the ceremony all by myself and ended up walking down the aisle in tears. Not only that...right before I walked down the aisle, my mom gave me a scrapbook with all of the nicest things about Casey in it.
I woke up in tears and confused the heck out of Casey. He tried to console me, but I felt so hopeless and alone. It was as if my chest was about to explode because it was filled with so much sadness. I can only imagine what actually losing him would feel like, but I'm pretty sure I got a glimpse of it last night.
Awful, just awful!
Let's move on to a much happier note...
It took me a very long time to pull myself together this morning. Zeke and Casey both helped cheer me up. Zeke was being his usual goofy self and Casey helped make me laugh again.
Before I knew it, it was almost noon and we were both starving. Casey reminded me that we had one last Buy One Get One Free coupon for breakfast at Maxwell McCoy's Eatery. We decided to use it and go their for breakfast (which also counted as lunch).
I started breakfast off with a cup of hot tea which calmed my nerves and soothed my stomach. One milk and one sugar in my orange pekoe tea.
I ordered the two eggs and toast breakfast that turned out to be a massive portion of delicious breakfast foods! I got two over easy eggs, four slices of marble rye toast, three strips of bacon, a big serving of homefries and some fresh fruit.
I ended up eating both eggs, half a piece of bacon, all of the fruit, about half of the homefries, and three slices of bread. I also had a few pieces of Casey's pancakes. It was a lot of food, but it was cheap and kept us full right through lunch. I guess you can say we killed two
After breakfast, Casey and I ran a few errands before taking Zeke for a relaxing 30-minute walk. It was pretty humid out, so we took it easy and didn't stay out too long.
Casey and I have plans to attend a BBQ Social/Movie Night put on by the barn at which I teach therapeutic riding lessons tonight. I'll be helping out a bit, but we are both just excited to mingle and enjoy a night off with great friends (and horses)!
Question: Have you ever woken up crying from a sad dream or nightmare? What is the saddest dream you have ever had? How do you recover from that funk you can get into the day after a bad dream?
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